Wednesday, August 24, 2011

The call came.....

It's 8:40 a.m. and I just got a call from my surgeon. It's one that I've been dreading since my diagnosis.
As positive as I have portrayed myself to all of you, I've been crumbling inside. I just knew the cancer had spread. I felt pains I had never felt before and became hyper-sensitive to every ache and shiver. I was pretty sure it had spread through my body and was killing me more every minute.
I was at my worst yesterday.

Today is different. Today I got up. I showered. I straightened my hair. Why not? I won't have it much longer. :)
I made it until 8 am without having to pop a xanax. I fed my kids, played with them and cuddled longer than usual with them.
Today, I decided, no matter what the doctor told me, I was choosing to live.
I would be the case in textbooks of the 31 year old who beat cancer even though she was given low odds. No matter what, I was not going to just lie down and die. Not this cat. Not now.

Here's the twist. The call came. A somewhat cheerful Dr Schmidt said, "Angela, this is a good day for you! The cancer is a little worse in the breast than we had immediately thought, but it has NOT spread past your lymph nodes. We can take care of this."
I cried. She cried.
She told me to go tell my dad because she had promised him that she would do everything in her power to save his little girl.

This is the best news ever. God is GREAT. All of you are great. Your prayers were heard and God took mercy on me and is giving me a chance to live a little longer. Today, I still have cancer that will rock me to my core over this next year, but I DIDN'T receive news that I was no longer curable.

I just want to celebrate....after I meet with my oncologist at 11. :)


40 comments:

  1. Thanks for the update. This made me cry ... but I am relieved, too. Sending lots of love and continued prayers!
    ~ Amy M.

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  2. Oh this is wonderful news!! I'm so thankful. My prayers are with you <3 <3 <3
    TOUGH TITTIES!!

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  3. I am crying I'm so happy for you!

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  4. I'm am crying!!! So happy for you! What great news! I love you so much!!!

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  5. oh thank God. I am crying for you right now. phew. xoxo, Kimmie

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  6. ang, i am so happy with this news, we're all having a bawling party here with you. good luck at the next appt!

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  7. So so so so so happy! What wonderful news!!! Hooray!!!

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  8. Thank god! You are in my prayers Angela, and will be until you have kicked cancers ass. ((hugs))

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  9. Tears are flowing--what an unbelievable moment in this journey. I feel like we won the Superbowl (notice I say "we" because I feel like this is a team effort and we are all fans cheering you on). Love you and am SO happy.

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  10. So so so happy for you. I'm so happy you received such wonderful news. I'll continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers every single day til you have beat this!

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  11. THANK GOD!!!!!!!!! I have goosebumps everywhere and am smiling ear-to-ear. You WILL fight this!!!

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  12. I am so happy for you. Thank God. You will kick this and come out on top. XOXO

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  13. I'm so very happy to read this!! Keep up the good fight!

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  14. Just sat here and cried at my desk...I am so happy for you and yes GOD is good and if anyone deserves great news, its you! Prayers for you still every day to get through this, but battle one, CHECK!

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  15. Yay!!!! You can totally do this!!! Praying for you every day!

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  16. Oh God thank God Angela. I am beyond relieved for you. This is something you can beat and you will:)

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  17. This is just awesome news, I am crying I am so happy for you. You are so going to kick cancers ass!

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  18. That's a great update! You've been on my mind constantly and I'm praying for you. We all are.

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  19. I am in tears right now I am so happy! You WILL kick cancer's ass!

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  20. Angela-I'm following you every step of the way! Great news today!!! What a relief. I think about you all of the time and you are all in my prayers everyday! Lots of love from the Andels!

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  21. omg... so so so happy right now, Angela!!!

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  22. Oh thank God! I am so happy for you! You are as always in my thoughts and prayers.

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  23. Tears of joy for you Angela. I'm so happy to read your news this morning.

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  24. Sitting here crying and so very happy to hear the results were good! You can beat this!!! Continued prayers for you:)

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  25. Oh Angela! Love and hugs to you and your family. Now that you have the diagnosis you can get busy kicking cancers ass! Aaaaaand GO! Lots of cheerleaders and god are all on your side!

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  26. You can kick this! Love you girl

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  27. Amazing amazing news!! I'm so happy and relieved it hasn't spread further.

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  28. Yay yay yay!! I am so relieved!

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  29. Oh thank God! I have goosebumps and tears in my eyes. The part about your Dad really got me. I could see how concerned he was when I saw him. I know you put up a good front but you are human and should be allowed to have your weak moments too. We are here for you so call on any and everybody you need to. You give me so much strength and inspiration to tackle my menial problems, I think of you like 50 times a day and pray for you often. You can do this!

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  30. I have tears and chills! What great news. I continue to be impressed by your strength and courage and you are in my prayers!!

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  31. Tears!!! That is such awesome news. You must feel a huge weight lifted. So happy for you.

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  32. Wonderful news!!! Hope for the best but expect the worst is exactly how I usually handle things, like you, and as it turns out hope won again! So glad to read this, and that the cancer hasn't spread!

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  33. I'm sitting here crying!! I was so worried for you, Angela .... and what incredibly good news! I am so, so happy for you. I'll beat this thing - and know you have all the love and support you could possibly need :)!!

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  34. I am so happy that I am crying. Many prayers that this is the start of good results.

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  35. Thank you, thank you, thank you to the Powers That Be!!!! Best news ever! I am so happy for you Momma! XOXOXO

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  36. Crying in the middle of the new Marley puppy movie while reading this!!! Sooooooooo glad all the prayer warriors were in action! We need to continue praying until the crap is GONE!!

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  37. Woohoo! This is the best news I've heard in a long time! You are going to rock this...you are so strong and everyone is behind you to support you along this journey!

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  38. Just heard the news and I'm happy that the first post I read is one to celebrate!will be keeping up with your journey and praying with you every step of the way. You ARE going to beat this!
    Marie (from long ago on MM...mom to Anna, Ava and Alexis)

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  39. Breathing again! Yes, thank the Lord that this was a good day for you and you are so going to get through this. We're with you!!

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  40. Angela I too am a mom of twins ( and 2 older daughters), & was diagnosed with stage III breast cancer two weeks after my 30th birthday!! But that was over 3 yrs ago & I am now juggling everybody, ALL 4 kids going back to school, watching a friends kids 2x/wk & I never thought I would get to a place where cancer wasn't the last thing on my mind when my head hit the pillow, or the first thing I thought of when my eyes opened in the morning. I will be praying for you daily, & if there is anything you want to ask, don't hesitate. Is there a support group offered near you for young women? Having that has made all the difference in coping!

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