Tuesday, December 6, 2011


I think this is one of the first times in this journey that I have felt a little defeated...and annoyed.

I try to follow doctor's orders and do everything right. Sometimes that's just obviously not enough.

I had my pre-op physical yesterday and after the blood draw and found out I failed. My white blood count is just over 2000. This week last month, I was over 8000.
If I get to 1000, they will hospitalize me.

I also heard that my echocardiogram from last week wasn't great. My ejection fraction wasn't what it was supposed to me. It can indicate a whole bunch of things like heart disease....or it may be nothing.
I will have to have an MRI on it to get a better idea.

Because my WBC is so low, it's very possible that it won't be high enough by Wednesday to get my scheduled (last) chemo.

I feel like everything has went so smoothly and now it's all up in the air. I'm too type A for this shit.

I know that it will all work out. I just hope chemo and surgery are able to stay on their scheduled dates.

Sorry about the vent. I'm really trying to keep a positive spin on things, but the unknown is so hard sometimes.

Guess which option I'm choosing? :)


  1. I KNOW which option you will chose because you ARE a Davis girl and you have 10 zillion people that love you!See ya in a few hours,Love,Dad

  2. Sending strength and some prayers your way! xoxo

  3. I can only imagine the momentary disappointment to not receive the news you wanted with your WBC and echo. You're ALLOWED to let it piss you off for a bit, but I know you'll move past it and forge on. That's my girl...

  4. Keep the faith. As a fellow breast cancer patient, I feel your pain. Please be strong and keep looking forward!

  5. I'm sorry that your numbers put you through a loop yesterday. Everything is going to work out exactly how it is supposed to. Promise. Scream, kick, cry, and then smile. LOVE YOU!!!!

  6. I'm sorry you got some bad news. I'll keep you in my prayers. Hoping that this is just a tiny speed bump. :)